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Found this site from BehindInfinity on DA.
givesmehope.com
Many of the little stories people post on there are so touching!! ;___;
"At my college graduation everyone is allowed to take a loved one with them as they walk across the stage. The last girl to walk across held the arm of her 90 year old grandpa. As they crossed the stage the chancelor read her grandfathers name. He graduated 60 years ago but didn't get to walk his own graduation because he was fighting in WWII."
"My dad owns a small business that isnt doing so well right now. Hes known the other employees for a very long time. He always makes sure that they get paid, even when he doesnt. He doesnt tell them, but he takes money out of his savings for them."
"One of my classmates in high school had leukemia, and he was really depressed after his first round of chemo when he came to school with no hair. When they found out about it, all 70+ members of the varsity football team shaved their heads too. Their yearbook picture is the most beautiful thing I've ever seen."
Please check out the site for more!
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| Possible Paypal email scam! |
[27 Apr 2008|11:00am] |
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Today I recieved an email claiming to be from Paypal, saying that they conduct regular account activity screening and noticed that my account may be being accessed by someone other than myself.
However, the sender of this email was from "accounts@paypaI.com", not paypaL.com. Also, a link provided in the email to update my account info for security reasons lead to some crazy-ass site, definitely not Paypal for sure. I didn't click the link, but checked its Properties first to see its address.
So if any of you recieve an email like this saying its Paypal, check whom its coming from and the link provided, without clicking the link though.
X-posted to my DA journal~.
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| Friends Only.. |
[15 Aug 2007|01:25am] |
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My journal is now going to be:
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[14 Aug 2007|09:43pm] |
...I'm not doing well lately..
Oh, what a surprise.
I've been so fucking depressed.. I've noticed that I no longer care about my job, and I don't do it as well as I used to. I wanted to go off so bad at work today. And I wished that I could have ran off somewhere and just let myself cry. There's not a single thing in my life that makes me happy. Nothing. People ask me what's wrong, and I don't want to tell them, even though sometimes I wish I could.. They wouldn't really care even if I did tell them. None of them give a shit about me. They all hate the way I am. And I hate the thought of trying to tell someone about my issues if I think they're the kind of person who wouldn't understand where I come from.
This isn't even about my job, really. Work is only a tiny part of it. It's my life as a whole that's my problem. It's the way I am; and the way I get. The way I tear myself apart inside over anything and everything. It's just.. so many things...
I need a vacation, or therapy, or medication, or something. I'm so fucking tired of getting this way...
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[16 Jul 2007|04:18am] |
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Coffee seems to have finally kicked in.
The one I bought several hours ago.
FUCKIDONTWANTTOSLEEEEEEP!!!11one.
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[06 Jun 2007|08:52am] |
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Wow, when was the last time I updated this thing...
Well.. I just got back from my driver's test...
...And I didn't pass.. Not completely. I passed Maneuverability, which is a fucking MIRACLE, because that particular area of ground that its held on is REALLY uneven. Its all hilly and the pavement is shitty and just ugh. UGH.
I thought I did well on the road test, but apparently, my turns were too wide, I didn't physically turn my head to look behind me, and I changed lanes at an intersection (lies!!).
Its ok. I'm.. disappointed, but.. I'm just not used to that part of town at ALL. Its a very large, busy street. I only have to retake the road test, in a week. I'll practice. I'll get it right..! ^___^;;;;
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| I thought it was cute. |
[05 Apr 2007|11:27am] |
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Josh: What day is it?
Me: It is Thursday.
Me: The fifth.
Me: Eleven twenty six in the ay em.
Me: How does that make you feel?
Josh: Crunchy.
Me: Nice.
...It's April, and it's snowing.
Wtf.
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[04 Mar 2007|09:39pm] |
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New journal colors to match the icon of me and my sister Meg, since the pic was already pink. Sorry if it's too pink for some of you..
It's our 25th birthday this month, on the 14th! :3 She's coming up to visit the last week of the month. Meg, you gotta tell me what you want for your birthday!! XD
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[30 Jan 2007|01:32am] |
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It's almost 2 a.m. Tuesday morning, but since I haven't slept yet, I'm going to say it's still Monday. XD
So, I went to bed at 6 a.m. 'this morning'. Mom calls me at 9 asking if I wanted to do anything today, since we both had the day of. Sure mom, we'll go shopping in Huber. XD Yay for 3 hours of sleep! We go to Target and I have a hotdog and a coke for breakfast, lol. Meg, if you haven't been to Target recently, go! They have that "World Bazaar" going on, and there's a huge wooden asian dragon that would look awesome on your coffee table. :3 We went to Marshalls and I found two tiny cups that match a small Japanese whale-print bowl that I have!! I just had to get them. Yay, a happy set! They also had some other nice asian-design plates and bowls I wouldn't've minded having, but I resisted.
I've eaten nothing but shit-food today, and I am disappointed. I'm going to try to really start eating better..!
Lol, I'll be on the third day of the my 4 days off and I haven't touched a single drawing. *laaaaaze...* Shame shame on me.
Yesterday I finally gave in a got a harness for my cat. He reeeaally does't care for wearing it, haha. Poor Taco. Hopefully when spring comes, he'll be used to it and I can take him outside, since he really wants to explore and see what's out there. I've always wanted a cat I could take for walks. Seeing as I can't find a harness for my turtle, hehehe. XD Always wanted a harness for my rats, too...
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[25 Jan 2007|12:22pm] |
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Woooow... It's been a month since I've updated this poor thing.
My AIM buddy list has been so dead.. Makes me a little sad/lonely, but I guess it doesn't matter too much, since I'm always Invisible and never talk to anyone.. My insecurity makes me feel that no one wants to talk to me, anyway.
Umm.. I really havent been up to anything of interest, really.. S'why I haven't updated, lol.
If I don't get called in to work for anyone... then I'll have 4 days off in a row, Sun-Wed. I won't know what to do with myself!! XD Hopefully I'll push myself to get some drawing done! I need to clean the house, too.. *hiss*
New pic in my DA gallery, for anyone whose not seen: Koyu.
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| Hidan fanarts for Henna!; my christmas |
[27 Dec 2006|10:56pm] |
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Unfortunately I did NOT draw these, but I found them on DA:
Realistic Hidan
Hidan mistletoe
You said that you'd already seen the last one I showed you; I was wondering, do you have friends that alert you to any and all Hidan fanart found, or was it just that one pic..?
To everyone else, nothing else is really new with me... I'm highly irritable and feeling down right now, so I'm just..gonna keep to myself for awhile, more than usual... and just wait it out. Mehhh.
My Christmas sucked for the most part.. My parents and I were supposed to go over to Grandma's for Christmas Eve, but my parents decided they didn't want to, so I thought, "Well that's ok, I didn't really wanna go anyways, so I'll just hang with my parents for Christmas :3 "
As soon as they got home from work, mom started drinking...... Which ruined the entire holiday for me right then and there.
Every. fucking. year. God it pisses me off.. Just ONCE I'd like to have a nice christmas without mom having to get drunk.
I stayed as long as I could stand... I don't expect much from Christmas anymore, so I wasn't happy that I'd actually let myself feel disappointed...
I did get lots of nice things from Josh's parents though! :3
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[03 Dec 2006|07:27pm] |
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Negative venting ahead...
I'm back in Ohio now.. got back Thursday night. Been absolutely and completely miserable ever since. I hate that I've come back here; right back where I started. The weather here is bringing me down even more. Being here, in this house and in this town disgusts me. I'm angry, depressed and lonely. My work has no idea I'm back now.. I haven't told them because I don't know what I should do. I want to go back to Georgia and be with Meg..but... I'm pretty sure I'm only going to do what I did before- wait and wait and see how things go. Even though I know nothing is going to change, I was hoping it would.. It's never going to change. I just can't force myself to feel what just don't feel.
I want to put up my little christmas tree soon, hoping that it might cheer me up a bit.. Sadly, it still won't do much, because I'm here.
Alright, enough of that. I apologize.
Some new pics in my DA gallery:
Foo Dog female
I heart Shukaku stamp
Fukkatsusha
Shukaku & Gaara
Koyu Misuto for Kiley-Oyekasu on DA. (not in my gallery)
For anyone who doesn't visit my DA gallery, there's other pics there you prolly haven't seen also.
I need a good dose of Elliano's.
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| Fooooood!!! |
[24 Nov 2006|08:36am] |
Yay, Thanksgiving! ^______^
Did everyone have a good holiday? I suppose I did, for the most part. Helped Meg cook the food, so I learned how to make a few things. I got to make (for the first time) one of my holiday favorites, green bean casserole yay! Wednesday night we made the pies- 4 pumpkin and 2 cheesecake. :3 Yesterday Meg had "holiday duty" at the vet's where she works, so she had to leave at 4 to take care of the animals, while I watched over the food. Got a litle crazy just before dinner was served, because the guests had arrived and a few things still needed to be made. Poor Meg burnt the rolls! ;___; I think the part of the meal she was looking forward to the most, her precious rolls.
But lol, Meg and I had to make so many damn trips out to Walmart... God I hate Walmart. I don't want to go to a Walmart again for a VERY long time. XD
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| Piccehs~~! |
[01 Nov 2006|12:56am] |
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Some photos of me taken this past weekend on little trip. These were all taken by my sister, except for the last one.
( Glorious snails of love! )
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| Drugs. |
[19 Sep 2006|10:49pm] |
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I'll spare your friends pages and put this behind a cut. XD
( Drugs, emo lawns and poo!! )
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| Going away |
[14 Sep 2006|07:44am] |
For several months now, I've been saying how I just want, and need, to get away for awhile, somewhere far away.. Well, plans to get out of the country never succeeded.. So Georgia will have to do. XD
Yeah, next Thursday I leave for Georgia to stay with my sister for at least 2 months.. No exact plans on when I'm coming back here; I bought a one-way ticket and I'll worry about coming back..whenever I feel like it! Haha.. I'm so happy I'm finally getting away for a bit. Even more excited because next weekend just so happens to be Anime Weekend Atlanta AND JapanFest, both being held in Atlanta, Georgia. My first anime con, yay!!
I feel a bit bad that I'm going to be losing so much money from leaving my job to take this trip, and Josh is pretty down about my going away for so long, but... I do need this..
..I've realized that I've become more fucked in the head than I ever thought I was.. The fact that I've done horrible things against Josh.. When Yoshi died, I completely lost it.. I've been very delusional about certain things..
And that personality test I posted recently pretty much proves it.. It was very accurate.
When Yoshi died and I was going crazy, some people suggested that I get into therapy.. And even now, Josh is telling me that he's extremely concerned about my mental state and is urging me to seek therapy...
I don't particularly like the idea that I'm THAT messed up, but.. I'm hoping this trip away will help get my head straight a little bit. Meghan is such a motivation for me, and I'm getting nowhere up here. Maybe I'll try some therapy while I'm down there.. but I hear its expensive..
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[09 Sep 2006|09:29am] |
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My internet is dead. I'm at the library right now.. No idea what the problem is; our internet company couldn't figure it out, and someone won't be able to come have a look at it til Monday afternoon. Grrr. I'm so bored!! ;___;
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| Taken from G-chan! |
[07 Sep 2006|06:48pm] |
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My Personality
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Check out the full report.. how sad I am... *crawls away to die*
Lol.
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